haiz... today Did something that oni assholes will do... prying into pple's blog really feel bad to read some 1's blog when its not even given to me from the owner as some pple view it as a diary.... but i juz wanted to know more about her thats y i Look for her Blog... and its not juz accidentally stumbled onto her blog... but after Reading her blog I felt That Really I cant be the 1 that can Always understand her and i juz feel that I am Not suitable for her.... but Its about Compromising and Accepting... not all are about changing or obey every word of the guys... But then 1 thing i noe is that she is a very sensitive girl bah... what I said when im juz being myself may juz hurt her without me knowing... I cant comment much abt those love They shared... but instead i can learn from there...
From There I can Know slightly what she wanted and what she expects from Her.. well The other part of her like having a simple you alright or juz by saying hi would cheer her up... I Know I might not stand the chance of being with her anymore as i know her feelings had fade... only when she open up her heart to me will there be anymroe chance for me... but i still want to wait as she had told me to wait for her answer.. be it gd or bad news i juz want to noe... but i still haven think of wat i shld do if the answer comes out negatively... I will juz leave it to fate bah... i cant force love do i? but i juz hope i can chat with her juz like before... without talking alot about emotions and feelings... but maybe toking about that oso helps us understand each other even more... but it can also be another way round bah.... but shes the one tat can make Me smile more den i usually do...
what I have been Thinking is am I a Burden to her? Maybe I can be her close friend but being together maybe its juz asking too much from her le bah... regreted holding her Hand on the 8th of august... a harsh and rather idiotic behavior... bakero? shld be bah... haiz The Memory of Being with her walking ard orchard shld be my deepest memory that i had with her bah... and being with her underneath void decks and also the first time i hold her hand.... juz some normal memory some might say... but it already Extraodinary to me le... I really wish that I am juz abit stronger not to think of her every single day even when I'm doing classwork practical or wateva... no matter what i do i juz couldnt do it... maybe this is a confession? or maybe its juz something which i can confide to? my frens are not that gd in toking to me about this.. so all i could was juz find some 1 which wun blurt it out to tell them all my feelings and all emotions that i had.... Jennifer Had her own Relationship to busy about le so shldnt worry her that much... and daniel juz dunno how to react which left with yinying who dun have much experience in r/s... so Im juz left with Myself... I have no more pple to confide to... I Juz wan to Say I really love her even if she doubt my every single words tat i had said... This Feelings Deepened every single day... i might juz collapsed 1 day........
Bleeding away...
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