wat i nid now.. is not sympathy..

you can be who u are and i can be what i am now..

If i ever die definitely its my own single fault..

so for now.. i will juz pretend that i have no emotions bah..

dun worry u wont get to see my crying face..

cuz i feel more fatigues now den being overly emotional..

afterall human cant beat fatigues..

the way u try to care makes me feel anguish..

annoyed

unneccessary..

things had already come till this.. i guess lets juz continue till this school terms end..
and we wont have to be blocking each others already..

that wat i had though of to ease this wound..

Wounds of life..

death.. its juz something that everday pple will face.. millions dies in a day in this earth..

how i wish i could bear my frens leukaemia so that he would get well and i would die from it..

i will nv noe cuz i might juz disappear in an instant..

a funeral for me will be placed..

and forgotten for life.. this guy shishun will cease to exist any more.. no 1 will remember..

living is so much more fearful den death
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Posted at 2:44 AM

putting all my Concentration and Mind into games le bah.. better den looking at this life and feel the misery.. getting a sense of acheivement is better bah.. afterall I had overtook noobs lv again.. maybe i shld juz play myself to the limit.. i had till now played almost everyday of 20+ hrs since holiday had start.. its really a master piece reaching lv 81 on the 4th week.. still got 6 days left to 1month what lv can i get leh? Afterall i broke myself down this 1 whole year for life.. maybe i shall break myself down for games bah.. cuz i love games too..


those who call me noob beware for im juz behind ur tail

to those thats noob Im sorry i overtook ur Levels again.. cuz ur juz too weak

oso im sorry that Im not who I used to Be.. I wont Be Saying "Its ok" easily I Take everything bad as a grudge.. and I am Egoistic.. I Will bear grudges to pple whole scold me or pple that retaliate to my insults
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Posted at 5:10 AM

A Body Deteriorating.. 2 days passed since napfa and Im Yet not Recovered.. nauseous easily.. Breathing difficulty.. its as if I will juz Die from it.. and the way I Had to walk so that I Dun Feel The Muscle ache is like How a Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease Patient would walk after certain time of Degenerating took place at the back brain.. but how i wish i would juz had some disease and die off.. its better off this way.. I Wouldnt get depressed and agonised by family source and emotion source.. dunnid to get hurt on my own and burden others.. Becoming a Barrier to them. oso I Think I Have Mild Paranoia and Minor depression.. maybe I would go mental a few years later.. Im Juz Sick of Living this life.. I Have no Purpose and no Aims..


Everytime I Hear her voice ...
See her Face...
I Would Tink Why Cant I Juz Set Myself Free..

This Light That I Couldnt Reach or Hold Shan't be the one light to brighten the fore path..
but the emotion says elsewise..
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Posted at 3:09 AM

Drag
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Posted at 12:29 AM

er.. hmm.. mmm..

She Says My Life is Sad..

Maybe So Bah.. I Juz Cant Fight With Destiny.. Fate is Against me.. =)

Maybe Shes So Dam Well Right..

The Point is Its So Pointless Goin After What Seems So Vague...

Being Happy When The 1 u Love is Happy is A Farking Blinded Way to Delude Oneself into Running Away From Reality From What u Seek What u are Goin to Hold..

Always The Giver Always The Giver

Taken By Grant

Taken Away..

So

Nothin I Want to Write Much abt..


But.

There Will Juz Be Some DiDis Smoking out there Catching Her attention..
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Posted at 2:33 AM

Actually Quite Numbed By Incidents Recently
Ytd an Ex 3 years Ago.. Shared her problems with me.. haha well kinda hard to solve..
Also Shes Was Rite about 1 thing abt my problem..
maybe I wasnt suited for her..
But Maybe Im Juz a Fool bah..
Loving Her is Juz such a Painful thing..
Her Cold and Hot attitude Sometimes juz Brings me Uncertainties..
A minute she Could Be Nice and could get angry within Seconds..
I Juz Duno what shes Thinking about..

well, Lets juz listen to this song..

Look What You've Done -Jet

Take my photo off the wall If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
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Posted at 1:05 PM

Im Seriously Sick of This Life.. " Becuz I Dun Really Like him that y i dun like" HA-HA-HA ya.. nice 1 there having a relationship with nothin attracting each other.. sure.. thats the 1st i ever heard.. i Dun Think I Have Anything Else to Say Already..

Living in this roof Really is Killing me.. Everdays Conflict btwn the 2 Bitch in My Hse.. one Which Dun See This World Enuff Over Concern over protective.. next is a Slut who always go out with her boy fren till late always avoiding the 1st bitch's call she might as well go let him fark and dun come back rather den coming back and have a fight of bitches.. everyday awaken by Such useless Dins and noise.. peace broken Stability taken away.. How I wish I Could Kill Of These 2 bitches..

The Older Bitch always Wan Things Her Way Even if It is Ridiculous She juz cant stop flaunting her "Im Older and ur Mother u better do it my way or its infinite nagging" piece of shit..

The younger bitch juz Wa Guys She juz cant Get enuff From them She wishes to Be Covered With Their CUMs From Top to toe.. Attention Seeker Always Trying to Assimilate My Freedom.. Which Will Always Be out of her Reach.. Always listening to Her Precious bastard not to go home early juz to provoke the bitch in this cage call " Home" and that bloody bitch will come and annoy me... after this bitch return both bitch will do a bitch Fight and Further Brings my Sanity Down.. 1 day I would Either Kill Them or Do a Jump off this Building..

This Farking world is Seriously Twisted as Days Goes By.. u Cant Believe in Anything anymore.. Not in Love Not in Life and Not in Fate.. Everything can Juz Be Made up be Fake juz to Make ur look great.. No No.. Juz to Raise u Up to Wonderland and Throw u Back all the way back down to the barren land where u came from and get a Hard Fall till one Day this Procedures continues till u Fall and Cant Wake.. Thats the time ur Sanity really disappears..

So Fark it.. Fark this World.. Screw My Life.. Take Everything away.. Stop Life Clinging onto me.. Drop me off this Place call Life.. Let me Rest Eternally..
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Posted at 11:54 PM