Today.. I told Myself I wont cry and I did... Nothin was Like the way I used to be.. nothin mean anything and Exam doesnt really matter to Me... Love was Too Hard a thing for mi to experience... Tying My Hair represent the holding on of my Feelings for her... No matter what I will Tie the Hair till Its the day where I can Really Let go... as It will remind Me of This Love... My one and Only Deep love... which Let me sinks so Deep into it... saw her eyes red but dunno if Shes crying... Chi qing de ren easy get hurt.. I guess this is What it meant bah... Loving her was 1 of My Lifes best Experience up till now... cant face her anymore... cuz seeing her face juz shakes me hard... haha... Juz like what my Blog's title said... I will be Juz Doing that.. Dun keep lamenting urself anymore if u ever see this blog again though... I will Continue to write although im not always tat hardworking... I cant Cry now.. I'm same as Half dead.. so I think theres no more emotion now in me... juz like art says.. I'm Zombified...

I tried veri hard to take you out of ur past.. the way which u are sort of "changed" by tat Ex of yours to be used to that to be controlled to be played like a puppet.... but nevertheless you tao bi yi qie...(escape reality) instead of being freed u liked being caged... you Feel uneasy being uncaged.. (uncontrolled) you based everything on your Feelings... that what leads to unwanted stuff happening.. This Might be Farking Angry for u to read but that juz wat I feel.. I have no right to Say those stuff to you yes.. you are still Holding on to the Past even If you say No... Its is from wat I seen... But also another reason was you being played by ur heart... and loved elseone... but I dunno who... but I think I was sure u will treasure Me like the way u wanted me to... but U made this decision juz Based on Recent Feeling of the guy.. unless is those u noe longer den Mi that i have nothin to say... But better not Be YOUR FARKING EX I would Do worst den disfiguring myself...
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Posted at 4:55 PM