Right now I'm very scared so unsure... I'm scared of Losing her again... Normally when Toking this kind of things I will have a pain... How do I describe it.. Its like Electric Wave Sent out by Heart its Pain and Numb... she Told me she is suspicious of her feelings.. which make mi scared even more... why is she scared why cant I trust her... why she have to tell mi that I cant trust her... I'm scared is there anyone out there to help me? I shld be angry when she went out with guys.. why shld I when its her freedom... and why is she guilty for Mixing with guys... I'm so Confused and scared now.. Tears always tried to break free I'm juz this weak little guy here... I'm really Scared... afraid.. why cant she juz affirm to me that she loves me... so at the least I wont feel so insecure... and also not say something like she will leave me cuz I let her have her way.. why does she have to say till as if she is goin to like another guy... theres so much "why" which I cant say with my mouth.. why does she says tat no 1 control her is like she dun have stead.... I'm so afraid and scared... Really... I hope I can hold on and nv let go... Really Depressed
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Posted at 3:14 AM