why is it so hard for me to get a stable 1 though?
i duno but maybe im juz so cursed..
the feeling she give me is like she totally dun care what i think and what i feel.. and she nv put herself in my shoes and think from my point of view..
given many advices from frens even they couldnt put up with wad she had done bah.. yes every girl will have at least 1 close frens who are guy..
but since she have a bf le shldnt there be a little self restraint?
like balancing out the time between frens and bf?
and not turning down the offer to meet her and instead meet other guys?
thx to xiaohui who help me figured this out man..
if not for her im still stuck in the dilemma..
girls that i ask for help all said that at least there muz be abit of self restraint bah..
not say like bcuz of bf pang seh fren.. but balancing between time for fren and bf is kinda needed bah..
yes i noe the loneliness u do feel at home..
but shldnt i be ur emotional support?
am i that unreliable?
but do u really feel wad i feel?
like how each time u mention that desmond name?
i noe u wan trust.. but trust isnt what it says and can be done juz by saying..
isnt wad trust shld be gained?
so do you think this is call gaining trust?
i do wan to understand you so cant u take a bit of time to talk abt how u feel?
how u feel when ur alone at home..
wad do u think abt when ur alone?
do u feel depress or lonely when your at home?
and wad am i to u? a pastime?
even if its juz 1min..
at least let me feel some security?
so i wont be so frantic and worry abt u tat much?
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